Kau lah yang paling terindah

Yang pantas kurindukan

Hingga mampu mengikat erat

Semua hari-hari yang kulalui

Dan selalu menjerat ke alam kerinduan

Yang sangatlah dalam

Tak pernah ku bisa lupakan dirinya

Walau sejenak saja

Ku ingin kau kembali tersenyum

Bukanlah sedih dan menangis

Maafkan kesalahan

Saat kita masih bersama

Dan bawalah aku melayang

Mendayung cinta di awan

Akankah kembali dan kunikmati lagi

Reff :

Slalu kunanti candamu kembali

Tak pernah lelah hatiku

Kan tetap disini… dan selalu kunanti

Candamu kembali

Slalu kunanti candamu kembali

Kuingin memiliki lagi… slalu kunanti

Candamu kembali

I don't know why. This afternoon, I just wanted to hear Vidi Aldiano's song. especially this song. I just imagine that the one who ever been mine sang this song hihihihi but it's exactly impossible. I realize that it won't happen hehehe. well, at least step by step I'm trying. I'm trying to find some possibilities for the betterment of my life :'] yaaaaaaay

 Saturday, 26th October 2013 

I never thought that on that day, I could feel an amazing experience ever.

actually, this's not my first time being a volunteer for teaching some children about English. 

maybe, the thing that made this feel special was because these children are those who came from the lower economical background family.

ok, let me make this more clear.

I've just got an information about teaching practice that held by "Sanggar Belajar-FKIP Mengajar, BEM FKIP Universitas Sriwijaya". I was interested in reading this information. at first, I didn't have any desire to join this but as I think and think, I knew that I should join this :")

this took for about an hour to go there from Inderalaya. sorry, I haven't told you the name of the village. this village's called as "Seri Banding". it's a kind of a suburb area because people who live here were so left behind from the hectic of a big city. houses here also were organized unwell. people here build their house above the swamp. and I think you can imagined how this could be. there's so much dry mud anywhere. there's no flowing spring there, there's just a kind of lake but it's not too big. and people use the water in the lake for taking bath and etc.

the road also  organized unwell. we need to hold on to the desk of Angkot (the public transportation that we use) for avoiding the tremor. this's caused by the rocks in the ground. when the wheels of Angkot bump the rocks, the tremor will happen.

as far as I saw to the left and to the right of the road, there's only forest. 

the distance among one village and others a bit far. so people here need to use a transportation to reach every village.

it took an hour, right. and when we arrived inSeri Banding, I never thought that the children there will welcome us by screaming

 "yeeeeeeeeey, ayuknyo lah dateng"

which means

 "yeaaaaaaay, our teachers just have arrived!".

the building that be the class for us to teach was just a mosque.

I haven't arrived yet when I saw the children were sitting in front of the mosque. 

deep inside my heart I said," Oh God, thanks for giving me a better life. wishing for a better life too for them. amin".

as soon as possible, I went to meet those children then.

at first, I felt just like a weirdo.

children here weren't shy to meet me. they directly ask me about the things inside my paper bag. 

" ayuk, kamu itu bawak ape?". means: " sister, what's inside your bag?"

I just ignored them. then, they asked me again, I still ignored them. then, they asked me again --" and I answered them by saying "Ok, kalau mau tau apa yang saya bawa, duduk yang manis ya" means: "if you wanna know what'sinside my bag, sit at your place please and I share them my sweetest smile :")".

they're naughty.

they walked arround during the lesson,

talked to their friend when I was explaining the material.

I taught them about English especially, Alphabet, number and parts of body.

actually, children here got some knowledge from their elementary schol, but it's not good enough to support them. they need extra lesson especially English. when I asked them about the Aplhabet (A-Z) and number (1-20) in English, many of them stil didn't know about it.

I was with them for about an hour and half. it felt so quick.

but at least I've taught them about Aplphabet, number and parts of body.

children here were 5 graders student of elementary school. they're small not too tall hehehe. basicly, many of them looked so hard adsorbing the knowledge that I shared so I used a game in helping them. we played "Simon Says" game. and thanks God, they got what I want. they're able to learn Alphabet, number and parts of body.

I took several photo with them during and after the class.

sorry if my pose disturbs your eyes :")

thanks for reading.

I almost forget to say something:

"Please reload this page and read this story again ehehehehe"

"Share your knowledge to others when there's stil time :")"

see what I'm doing. the smallest white board I ever use :")

what a pose -_-

BEM UNSRI and meand also my lovely friend, Riska (beside the two boys)

 

I just re-post these words.

They represent what I'm going to say if I have a chance having my precious one again.

I hate the way you talk to me

and the way you cut your hair

and when you're not with your glasses

I hate the way you drive my car

I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind

I hate you so much

it makes me sick

it even makes me rhyme

I hate it

I hate the way you're always right

I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry

I hate when you're not arround,

and the fact you didn't call

but mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit

not even at all.

This night, I just checked my Twitter account.

when I checked the connection box, tarammmmm......

"someone's following me". and you know who? He's the one that I just followed this afternoon hehehe. 

Actually, my previous writting is the reason why I still write about being a stalker. 

after being a stalker for his blog, I stalked his Twitter account.hehehe

I found his favourite box is full of love words. ya, meskipun tidak terlalu penuh ya hehehe

oh my........I never thought that his tweets were so "Gombal" hehehe.

when I read it, I can say nothing

I think, he's not a kind of person who can write that kind of words.

OK, I'll give ya a kind of Gombal words that ever be tweeted by him 

"Kenapa kamu harus begitu jauh aku kenal, sehingga ketika kamu pergi, bayangan kamu masih terus muncul di pikiranku."

or

"kamu sejenis reptil yah?"."kenapa emangnya?"."kayaknya kamu mulai merayaprayap dihati aku"."..."

ok, fine. it's better for me just being a stalker for his Blog and twitter account. the only thing that I know is his love's ever given to someone that he really loved. that's it. 

Being a stalker of someone's blog is my job for tonight :".

I never thought that his blog is consisted by several love story and his wishes to Allah for finding the right one. the right one that I mean here is "the one and only who'll be his lovely wife".aaaaargh......

phewwwww.

am I better of now?

he hopes for someone's good because he's trying to be a good one. he deserves to find that woman

I also  deserve to find a good one in the right time, and....

may I deserve him?

*hiks

it's out of my mind

I can't event imagine that I'll be with him

people say " Be a good one first if you want a good one"

well, OK.

I'll try to be someone's good

and help me fix this self my Lord, Allah SWT :)

when I see Mr. Darcy, I thought that he was you and finally I'd be Mrs. Darcy :)

Actually I don't have any idea to be shared. 

Today, I challenge my self to be brave to register a kind of competition "Pemilihan Duta Bahasa Provinsi Sumatera Selatan". 

I've joined this competition last year but the result is not good enough.

and again, I wanna show the world that I can be a good one by challanging my self to compete with my self in this year. I don't expect whether I'll be the winner or not.. the most important one is just about how to compete with my own nervousness and deliver my article well. wish me tons of luck :)

Today is September 12th, right?

ya, today's September 12th 2013 :)

Kadang ingin aku bertemu
Dan berbagi waktu yang terlalui
Sukar tuk sadari
Ku tak boleh mengingini

Reff:
Tanpa mu cinta tak berarti
Cinta sudah lewat
Tak kukira kan begini
Mengapa harus kau terikat
Meski t'lah terucap
Hanya aku yang ada di hatimu

Pernah kucoba menyisihkan
Namun hati tak rela tuk akui
Kenyataan yang ada kasih
Kau tak mungkin ada di sini

Tanpamu cinta tak berarti
Cinta sudah lewat
Tak kukira kan begini
Mengapa harus kau terikat
Meski t'lah terucap
Hanya aku yang ada di hatimu

Bila memang cinta tak harus slalu miliki
Namun nyatanya tak mudah melupakan

Tanpamu cinta tak berarti
Cinta sudah lewat
Tak kukira kan begini
Mengapa harus kau terikat
Meski t'lah terucap
Hanya aku yang ada di hatimu

Ooooo... ooo...

Tak kukira kan begini
Mengapa harus kau terikat
Meski t'lah terucap
Hanya aku yang ada di...
Hanya aku yang s'lalu di...
Hatimu.

Love is a four letter word.
love is a thing that given by our Lord, Allah SWT naturally
no one in this world can avoid it.
love, a thing that I ever felt

love is a four letter word
the true one belongs to our lord, Allah SWT
but.....
he allows us to feel it in his world by giving us a chance to love someone.

love is a four letter word
there's no place to go to avoid this
if you're trapped into it, just feel it

love is holy thing that must be kept
it grows naturally
we can't guess who'll be the one that we love in this world

love is a precious thing that I ever felt
my love was taken by the one that ever be mine
yesterday was a history
tomorrow is a mystery

you know nothing towards your feeling when you're in love
it makes you smile
it makes you cry
it makes you sad
it makes you happy

when you go,
love will be with you whenever you're

where you go,
love will follow you wherever you're

when you get older,
love will follow you whatever you're

[Taylor Swift]
All I knew this morning when I woke
Is I know something now, know something now I didn't before.
And all I've seen since eighteen hours ago
Is green eyes and freckles in your smile
In the back of my mind making me feel right

[Taylor Swift]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
[Both]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you, know you, know you

[Both]
'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello."
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

[Ed Sheeran]
And all my walls stood tall painted blue
And I'll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you

[Taylor Swift]
And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies
The beautiful kind, making up for lost time,
Taking flight, making me feel right

[Both]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you, know you, know you

[Both]
'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello."
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
And you'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Come back and tell me why
I'm feeling like I've missed you all this time, oh, oh, oh.
And meet me there tonight
And let me know that it's not all in my mind.

[Taylor Swift]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you, know you, know you

[Both]
All I know is we said, "Hello."
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

[Taylor Swift]
All I know is we said, "Hello."
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain and everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days I'll know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

You are always gonna be my love
itsuka dare ka to mata koi ni ochitemo
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
now and forever..

When I can't close my eyes, I tried posting this blog. a week ago, I just had a kind of secret chit-chat with him, the one that ever be mine. and tonight, I remembered him but I can do nothing. I checked my laptop then I found this, hopefully he knows what's meant by this song. Happy watching :)

Yellow Card - Only One

Usher - Separated

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Aku belajar mencintaimu
Mencintai Tanpa Syarat apapun
Meski kau yang tersulit untukku
Tapi aku tak ragu

Kini kita sudah semakin jauh
Bahkan sulit untuk kembali
Kuberi semua yang ada padaku
Tanpa syarat apapun

Aku ingin trrus ada dihatimu
Aku lelaki yang tak bisa mudah menggantimu
Meski aku takut akan kelemahanmu
Ku takkan lari karena cintaku sempurna

Kini kita sudah semakin jauh
Bahkan sulit untuk kembali
Kuberi semua yang ada padaku
Tanpa syarat apapun

Aku ingin terus ada dihatimu
Aku lelaki yang tak bisa mudah menggantimu
Meski aku takut akan kelemahanmu
Ku takkan lari karena cintaku sempurna

This is one of my fave songs from my fave singer Afgan Syahreza. This's "Sabar" or in english it can be called as: be patient or calm down. this song is one of the originl soundtrack from "Refrain" where Afgan played his Role as Nata and Maudy Ayunda as Niki. Refrain, Saat cinta selalu pulang.

Sabar, sabarlah cintaku

calm, calm down my dear

Hanya sementara kau harus dengannya

it's just for a while that you'd be with him

Kau harus bersamanya kini

you should be with him, now

Sabar, sabarlah cintaku

calm, calm down my dear

Takkan selamanya karena sebenarnya

because actually, it won't forever

Kau tahu sesungguhnya aku

you know that I am

Aku yang paling kau cinta

I'm who you love the most

Aku yang paling kau mau

I'm who you want the most

Rahasiakan aku sedalam-dalamnya cintamu

save me as your secret as deeply as your love

Aku yang pasti kau cinta

I'm who surely you love

Aku yang pasti kau mau

I'm who surely you want

Selamanya di hidupmu aku kekasihmu

forever in your life, I'm yours

Sabar, sabarlah cintaku

calm, calm down my dear

Hanya sementara kau harus dengannya

it's just for a while that you'd be with him

Kau harus bersamanya kini wooo

you should be with him, now

Sabar, sabarlah cintaku

calm, calm down my dear

Takkan selamanya karena sebenarnya

because actually, it won't forever

Kau tahu sesungguhnya aku ooo

you know that actually, I am

Aku yang paling kau cinta

I'm who you love the most

Aku yang paling kau mau

I'm who you want the most

Rahasiakan aku sedalam-dalamnya cintamu

save me as your secret as deeply as your love

Aku yang pasti kau cinta

I'm who surely you love

Aku yang pasti kau mau

I'm who surely you want

Selamanya di hidupmu aku kekasihmu

forever in your life, I'm yours

Aku yang pasti kau cinta

I'm who surely you love

Aku yang pasti kau mau

I'm who surely you want

Selamanya di hidupmu aku kekasihmu

forever in your life, I'm yours

we sat
we shared
we flashed our mind back


I sat
I shared you what I wanna say
I stared you deeply
I thought that you were mine

you sat
you shared me what you wanna say
you saw me, just saw me
and you realized me that you were not mine

it hurts since we weren't a part
it kills me since we broke up
it feels nothing since you're not mine

I feel nothing since you we're not mine
it's killing me since we broke up
it's hurting me since we we're not a part

you used to be mine
you used to be my sun
you used to be my star
you used to be my moon

you used to be my friend
you used to be my best friend
you used to be my boy friend

how big this love is
how long this journey will take me
and how will God show his way to make you meet me again?
someday, I believe in someday

with love

sleep well, there

I do love this song. but I tend to choose Boyce Avenue feat. Fift Harmony to song it hehe. their version is a bit slow. they change it into an accoustic one. I share you the lyrics of this song and hopefully you can sing and memorize it :')

Mirrors 

Aren't you somethin' to admire?
'Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always
Parallel on the other side

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original
'Cause it doesn't seem merely a sample
And I can't help but stare, 'cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now (please show me, baby)
I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You are, you are the love of my life [x10]

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

You are, you are the love of my life [x8]

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You're my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

You are, you are the love of my life [x16]

Holla. Konbanwa

it's a long time for me to not post my writing in this blog. and as ussual, I wanna share you my fave lyrics from the songs that I always listen to. its from Rio Febrian. hes my fave singer. actually Angin Malam was an old song that covered by him. I ever heard my dad sang this song for several times and a few months ago I found that Rio Febrian covered this song. it's a song about how a man remembered to someone who ever be in his heart. completely, just read the lyrics and better for you to just download it for knowing what the song tells you about :D. happy reading

Angin Malam - Rio Febrian

Berhembus angin malam, mencengkam
Menghempas membelai wajah ayu
Itulah kenangan yang terakhir denganmu

Ku dekati dirimu kau diam
Tersungging senyuman di bibirmu
Itulah senyuman yang terakhir darimu

Diiring gemuruh angin meniup daun daun

Alam yang jadi saksi, kau serahkan jiwa raga

Angin tetap berhembus tak henti
Walaupun sampai akhir hayatku
Tapi tak lagi kau berada di sisiku

Tapi tak lagi kau berada di sisiku oh
Tapi tak lagi kau berada di sisiku ooh

Diiring gemuruh angin meniup daun daun (meniup daun daun)
Alam yang jadi saksi, kau serahkan jiwa raga oh

Angin tetap berhembus tak henti
Walaupun sampai akhir hidupku
Oh angin malam bawa daku kepadanya oooh
Oh angin malam bawa daku kepadanya